I want to write, I feel the huge need to do it, but can't seem to figure out what to say. I don't want people I care about and love to hurt and when I can't do a single thing to help, feel like I'm making it worse, or have caused the hurt they're going through I die inside. I want to be loved and needed and held. I want someone to miss me while they're gone or while I'm gone. Instead I'm the only one missing anyone and I've given up on that even. Let's hope my selfish moment has passed...

And if anyone's looking for a powerful song, my suggestion is Lux Aeterna by Clint Mansell off of the Requiem for a Dream soundtrack. No words, just music, insturmental I suppose. I love it. I told Stephanie it sounded like crying. I guess when I said it what I meant was powerful, my chest is hurting, my soul is dying-crying. I don't know, think what you will. Good luck.

And if you want a truly beautiful song (video is good too, made me feel it was for me) then check out You're Beautiful by James Blunt. I love it, it's pure, it's well, as I said, beautiful. And omg he did a cover of Crowded House's Fall at Your Feet...I truly love this song, and his cover is awesome as well. I'm sorry I might not know that much about artists and music in depth but I love this. Check him out, I think you might find it's worth it. Poetic, beautiful...And his song No Bravery...damn. He might not have the greatest voice, but strangely I love it.

Crowded House rocks my socks off, I don't know how to explain why I even love them, but I do. There was a moment in time when I listened to only their albums for a few days, and every day I would wake up with one of the songs in my head, a different song every day. So odd.