I feel out of time and unworthy.

Mad World. Awesome song. Not sure if I knew Tears for Fears did it originally, but it seems like a song they'd have done. But I do love the Michael Andrews version, the version I happen to have. Christmas went better than expected, but still, nothing like it used to be, even in comparison with last year. Guess it was time for a change, not sure I like it though.

Change schmange.

Gah, my list of wants and wishes feels as though it would be too long and too undeserved to list so I'm going to skip that, for now, though it's on my mind.

Something Corporate has been my most played band lately. I only have one album, North, and two other songs not on that album, 'Konstantine' and 'Woke Up in a Car'.

I think I'm going to go spend some time with my brother, maybe finish watching Blade with him and play some Xbox...though it is just after 3am. Keeps me from feeling lonely seeing as my nap this afternoon has messed me up I don't feel like laying awake in bed crying or something. It's a good thing he came home, good thing I got sick, well sort of. Kept me from feeling as lonely as I could have, though while I was sick I felt pretty damn alone, but wasn't well enough to think on it too hard and long.

Thanks to those of you well wishers. Happy birthday again Stephanie, glad it went well, glad my phone call was good for you. Merry Christmas (sure this is all late but well meant) to everyone who celebrates it, was good to see that it went better than expected for Mike, Stephanie, and myself, hope it was just as kind if not kinder to everyone else. Thanks Stephanie for the late night/early morning chat we had the other night, was fun to be that silly but understood. Goodnight.