All I need

Side note...I noticed I've just hit 94 posts for this year which is a tie for how many I had last year...found it interesting...sorry...carry on.

"Like all escapists, I sometimes get lost in long moments of silence." Yeah, that'd be me too...borrowed that line from the book I have yet to finish, but I'm getting there.

Last night I went to the mall to see Saw III...dude...what a mind fuck. Best of the three that are out so far...not to hint that they're may be a fourth in the works... Movies like that just...get to me in a way that just numbs me but not fully, and terrifies the crap out of me.

"What am I doing here, if you're not with me?/When gravity's pulling, you're still holding my heart."

So the two of you suggested I write more about each of you. Shall I flatter you with my words? I don't think they're enough you know cause the two of you are pretty much THE most important people in my life. If I only had the two of you I'd be just fine. I'm sure there are a few people out there who'd be a little hurt if they read this but, seriously, the two of you...my world.

Man, I thought it was hard enough knowing Stephanie and not being able to meet her cause of how far away she lives...but now with Elaina further away than Stephanie, I'm dying. I want to be on the east coast. I want to be able to meet Stephanie and convince her I am one of her bestest friends. I want to be living with Elaina letting her know every day that I'm not going anywhere unless she's there with me.

Seriously, Stephanie, you helped me through one of THE hardest times in my life and you're still there when I need you and I hope and pray you know I'm here for you. My only hope is that I can be half of the friend you've been to me. I know we've only "known" each other for a little over a year now but I feel like it's been longer (in a very good way mind you), you're an essential part of my life. I can't wait to meet you, I owe you a few hugs and a few kicks in the ass (I don't recall what for just yet so just know you deserve 'em :P ). I adore you. Also just noticed that on the fifth of November last year I posted a poem I wrote for you.

Elaina, my Lainey, my love you're with me wherever I go; on my mind and in my heart. I miss everything about you. I miss your head on my chest just listening to my heart beat. You've made me so much happier, though it kills me that we're so far apart, my life is so much brighter now that you're in it. You take my breath away. If we're not done taking dirt, well as long as you're with me and as long as you love me and I love you, we'll make it through. I'm so greatful to've met you and even more so that I have your love and I can give you mine. I love you so much, a lot, forever (eva)...with everything I am and everything I have. "I meant what I said when I said until my dying day."

"I'm holding onto you, holding onto me/Maybe it's all we got but it's all I need/You're all I need//And if all we've got is what no one can break/I know I love you, if that's all we can take//The tears are coming down/They're mixing with the rain/I know I love you, if that's all we can take."

I hope that works for you guys, I fear I'm not as good with my words as I'd like to be, as I once seem to have been. Love you's.