Family

Growing up I used to think it was pretty cool having so much of my family around me. In a small town when you don't have a lot of friends it's a cool thing, right? Got to play with my cousins who were fairly close in age to my brother and myself, saw one set of grandparents quite often, and then there were my aunts who were mostly located in the same area. Family get togethers were always fun and pretty memorable (Christmas was the best). After my grandfather died things started to fade and fall apart it seems and I'm thinking after my grandmother dies everything will be over.

At this moment in time my grandmother is over 80 I believe, has Parkinson's Disease, and a few other problems. She's falling apart and some days she's pretty much not there, goes crazy, it's the only way I can think to describe it. I have this aunt who, while growing up I thought was cool, I am now prepared to kill her and accept all consequences for my actions. She's been taking advantage of my grandmother and her state of mind. My aunt is the youngest of five girls and seemed to get away with quite a bit as she was growing up, and seems to have missed a few lessons along the way. Basically, she's been stealing from my grandmother. Stealing from her own mother, her own dying mother! My oldest aunt on this side of the family is currently living with my grandmother and has, as it seems, finally given up on taking care of her (my grandma). My mom is at her whits end, she's out there at this very moment putting my grandmother to bed because my aunt has refused to put her to bed, has refused to take care of her. I'm going insane. I know my family's certainly not the worst out there, but right now all I can wonder is WHAT THE FUCK?

The Thief/Bitch/Unbelievable Whore/Liar/Self-Centered Fucking Bitch (I know I used bitch already but she deserves a few more in the title) has always been a liar, a thing I came to recognize and understand while growing up. Her lies were usually non-damaging and rather easy to dismiss, you just knew to take them with a grain of salt (did I 'say' that correctly?). Now it's out of control and all I want to do is track her down (wouldn't be too hard) bitch her out, make her see what the fuck she's doing, and beat the shit out of her. The Thief is trying to turn people against each other and is trying to do whatever she can to ensure that she gets everything she can before Nana (my grandma) dies. It's all such a tangled web, an insane, tangled, mangled, fucked up, piece of shit web. Shit is only going to escalate when Nana dies, that's when it's going to get even messier, and I can't imagine that, it can actually get worse than it is. What the hell am I going to do? I know people with families tons better than this (and worse as well), why can't mine behave like adults, behave as though they love their mother, not her money (I don't think there's that much, especially not now, but still there's money)?

I know I don't have to be here, don't have to be a part of it, but if I were miles away I'd be just as pissed. My own brother is miles away and he's prepared to come home from college and kick some ass.