Written September 24 and October 3 & 4 of 2005

I am no good for you
No good to you
An emotional wreck
A one-way street
The back of my hand

I am this pain
This hate is me

It's always about the end
The pain
The fresh marks
Tearing away at my soul
While I sit here and wince
Allowing them to cut me deeper
Rip me apart
Make me scream
Make me cry and beg for the end

I crave this
I want this
I need this

Live for it
Die from it

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Written September 24 and October 4 of 2005

I torture your soul
All for the bittersweet taste of your tears
This perverse pleasure
Takes ahold of me
You are my victim
I am my target

I attack you all for a scream and
For the return blows
Haunt me, taunt me
Give me what I want

Your pores ooze with fear
I aim for you heart with the nastiest of words
Fight back
Hurt me deeper
It's all I've ever craved
I lust after this destruction

I tear you to pieces
All to destroy myself
When I see my ugliness
Reflected in your eyes, in your tears
I am complete, I am whole