Written October 15, 2005

You cheat at this game
But it’s my fault for playing along
I should have known better when you hold all the cards
You forget what secrets I hold, but I refuse to play that way anymore
I was stupid to think you’d hold true to your word
When I burnt you it wasn’t to scorn, it was to protect – and not myself
There’s no way to force you to see
Make an ass of yourself, truth shall prevail


I want to get into an already lost fist fight with you,
Just to say I hit you, if only once
To have the pain of hitting you square in the face aching in my knuckles
It’s pointless, I know, but I can dream


You can’t cut me away like dead skin
If you believe everything you hear than you’ve fucked yourself
You’ll get trapped in that spiral and sucked down
I’m not going to bother trying to save you
My words seem to mean nothing to you, perhaps all you see is more lies
No matter what I admit to, no matter the times I apologize, that’s all you’ll ever see
You won’t stop kicking me while I’m down
Even after you apologize you manage to turn your back, again


Rant like an evil tyrant, you’re getting on my nerves
Your voice fills me with an unbearable amount of anger, but I suppress
Strip me of everything I know, I’ll still be here, no matter how broken
Eat your words; I’m not hearing them anymore
This wasn't how I foresaw it, not this much pain
You wanted to end it, I await the day