Okay and another...I told you guys I wanted to write...


Written October 2, 2005

I'm holding myself
Wanting to rip my hair out
Gouge my hands
Why won't it all flow?
My legs shake beneath me
I want the rain to free me
The more I think
The more the feeling intensifies
My heart pounds beneath this flesh and these bones
I feel as though my soul is trying to escape
It's trapped within me
Like nothing to be described

Won’t you hold my hand and lead me out
Guide me, give me words
Help me fight this demon inside
Free this anger, this self deprecating hate
Tear away my shackles of shame
Let me rage