I need somewhere to go. I'm feeling anxious, like if I had somewhere to go, I'd jump in my car and go there. Maybe if my mom wasn't home I'd go for a run. I feel like bawling, like laying in the dark with music blaring, singing along, crying, screaming, beating the shit out of the walls with my fists. I picture myself walking around in the dark, alone. I was watching TV earlier had the lights on and was laying in bed. Had to turn all of that off and put on a dvd to calm myself in some way. I feel tired but unable to sleep. I need to belong somewhere. It's eating me alive.