Me

Okay, I don't want people getting the wrong idea about me. I am totally miserable, right now, but in real life, away from the computer, away from my sad, depressing, totally bring-you-down music, and when I'm not totally alone, I can be real fun and totally funny. I can be a total kid and at 23 I guess that's not hard to do. My past doesn't define who I am, but I have let the miseries from my past hurt me deeply and when I was younger I bottled it all up until one day, in the seventh grade it all came up, shrouding me in depression. This depression is all I know, all that's familiar to me. But I love the completely wreckless moments I have when I'm fully out-of-my-mind hyper, which, unfortunately isn't often. At this point in my life I'm being bombarded with the fact that I need a real job, I need to grow up, I need to decide what I'm going to do and plan out my life, and I need goals, and I just need to be an adult. What the fuck is the point? I mean honestly, oooh yeah I can't wait to grow up so that I can get a job and work the rest of my mundane life? Not that there are too many other options really, so for now, I guess I'll go with the flow. You know, misery loves company.........