To hell and well, hopefully back

I'm not sure how I'm feeling right now. No, I take that back, I'm feeling dead. Right now I'm in that position of just when you thought things were going well...it all comes back to you. It's not the end of the world, I'm sure of this. But right now I'm in well limbo I suppose, again. I just want to sleep all day, for a few days.

I'm feeling stripped of everything familiar, that whole 'starting anew' feeling. And I'm feeling like it's the most unfair thing ever. I know this will all pass, that's actually one of the only things getting me through this. Of course the other thing is friends, people who want to see and hear me feeling better than I am right now. It did feel good to feel genuinely happy, happy for no reason. It was rather shocking to me and everyone around me at first but man, it felt great and I want it back. I honestly never imagined myself wanting that happiness, I suppose I never thought it was possible, for me at least. I'm not quite used to the stop and go of it all, going from so high to so low, but I'm sure that in time I will find the balance.

I want to thank everyone who has had faith in me, knowing I can pull through this, knowing I'm strong enough. I don't know that I could have done any of this without encouragement and people pushing me to be me, and to be free. I'm still getting there, but it's good to have people behind me, supporting me, pushing me, so as I said before, thank you. Please have patience and thank you for the patience you've shown so far.