Last Tuesday I went on a job interview for a company called TSI (Technical services Inc.). The interview went real well. The company puts circuit boards together and they've got three companies that they put whole products together for as opposed to just making circuit boards.

The woman who interviewed me had me do a mock circuit board, I had to copy the example circuit board as quickly as possible, some of the pieces have to be put in facing certain ways, other than that I just had to get it done. There were about 10 pieces, one was incredibly tiny. She'd given me a pair of pliers but said I could use my fingers if I preferred. Didn't need the pliers at all, not even with the little piece which she pointed out afterwards that she'd never seen anyone put that piece in without the pliers. She seemed shocked at how quickly I'd finished because she said I didn't even look rushed but I'd done a great job and a quick one as well. She said that it was too bad they didn't have an opening in that part of assembly at the time.

She said that she needed to find a few other people to fill some positions but that she really wanted to hire me, not an, "I want to hire you, but..." kind of thing either. I left feeling rather confident.

On Friday I gave her a call back to see if the positions had been filled and she informed me that they had but there was going to be another opening on the 24th but that the company hadn't decided if they wanted to hire internally or find someone new so she said she'd find that out and call me back. Turns out she still wants to hire me and thinks I'd have more fun in whatever position is opening.

I'm nervous as all get out. I'm afraid of her calling tomorrow and saying I've got the job for sure. You'd think I'd be more worried about her not calling, or calling to let me know she doesn't have a place for me. I'm so terrified that I would even back down from the job, decline when she says I'm hired, I'm not stupid enough to do that, but it's been a thought in the back of my mind.

Now, she might not call tomorrow cause she's not sure how soon they're looking to fill the spot, it could be the next day, it could be a few days after that.

Why the fuck am I so scared? Time to stop thinking about it

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It's been really hot here the last few days, was about 90 degrees F at around 5/6pm yesterday. This is a tad odd for us here because August is usually when we experience our hot weather. I've been dying from the heat, but at the same time I'm loving it. Although, my mom's house, which is almost always too cold, is holding so much heat. We've got every window open and a few fans running. This is definitely hot to us western Washington folk, and I'm going to make it a point to acknowledge the fact that I know it's hotter in quite a few other states as well. Sleeping's been harder to do with this heat cause I have to sleep with covers on or I feel naked in a way. Just a sheet over me will not do it, there has to be something I can feel, something heavy-like.

Went swimming yesterday and today and both times we didn't go until the evening which around here would be a stupid thing to do cause it would be cold and pointless but, the water's been great. I started swimming lessons at the age of 3 so I like to think I can swim decently. Over the years though I've given myself a bit of a fear of water, the idea of something grabbing me and pulling me under...all that jazz (hehe, I used to panic about climbing out of the pool, afraid some invisible thing was going to grab my feet as I climbed out. I imagine that anyone who saw me climbing out in a panicked rush got quite a show), not to mention my ears have pressure issues or did anyway whenever I tried to touch the bottom of the 12 foot pool. Well today I tried to get below the surface of the water and swim as far as I could on the one breath. Usually that kind of thing terrifies me, especially in murky lake water, but today I did well. Found out my lung capacity blows massively and that I'm so not in shape. I need more endurance.

Enough with the boring time to sleep I think.