Signs that the world keeps turning, life does go on, and they can survive without you (the moment you realize you're the only one still mourning)
The dog you loved (and was considered an outdoor only dog) now gets to come into the house, all the time.
You're informed you are no longer "mom" to said dog.
The kids get bigger and smarter.
They replace everything you knew, including the house.
All of the things you used to do are things anyone could do (you are replaceable).
They aren't calling you begging to know where something is, how to do something, or what to do without you.
They can still breathe, which means they're alive...so you wonder how it is that you're still alive.
When a picture of the puppy formerly known as your puppy makes you break down in regret and yearning.
I'm certainly not wishing they couldn't live without me, I'm glad that they can...it's just one of those facts that takes you aback, something you keep denying to yourself and secretly hope for, but not... I'm not really foolish to think they don't still hurt, cause I know they do, but I of course feel that I hurt more, but I doubt I do, they just have actual lives to go back to, I have to restart mine.
It's exactly like mourning a loss, I guess they're done mourning.
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