Something to think on

I love posting on my blog. I hate the idea of disappointing people though, so hopefully nothing I say is a disappointment. I've thought about posting more of my poetry, but someone pointed out how they were worried someone might claim it as their own. Well, that got me to thinking if I should be paranoid, and really, what plans do I have for my poetry in the long run. I mean no matter what, I would still be really irritated if someone did steal my poems. So, to post or not to post, that is once again, the question. I'm tired, I'm bored, and I'm yet again, alone. I have the TV on in the other room for background noise, I'm so used to having it in the same room as the computer, something to get used to, it's a bitch I tell you, as is dial up, especially when you're used to something a tad faster (and 'a tad' is such an understatement).

Do you ever just wish that you could actually not worry about what other people think of you? I mean seriously, people say it to you all the time, and then question you, "do you really care what so in so thinks of you?" Naturally the answer to that question is, "yes". Why the hell shouldn't I? I mean I suppose in the long run what other people think shouldn't matter, but in the here and now, it totally matters. I'm constantly seeking approval. I would rather know what other people are thinking rather than try to figure it out for myself and be completely wrong. I want to be told if someone thinks I'm the shit, I mean come on, it's a huge boost of confidence, which as you can tell, I need, anyone needs it really. Of course on the slightly more depressing side, it's a bitch to hear when someone doesn't think you're the shit but it also gives you the opportunity to improve things about yourself, if you so choose. Wow, where'd those big thoughts come from, sometimes I surprise myself! Once again peace out, may be back later with more "2am" postings :)