So lately I've been remembering issues I used to have and how I'd analyzed them and discovered meaning in them. A few years ago I noticed that shouting and arguing used to put me on edge, be it on TV or in person, I'd just get uncomfortable. Realized it had to do with my parents always fighting...but then I became the shouter in arguments and apparently that cured me...now in my calm state once more...I've noticed I become incredibly agitated when I hear shouting and loud arguing again.

Also, I have a hard time doing new things in front of my friends and loved ones, always have. I believe it goes hand in hand with my being afraid to ask for help...all stemming from my childhood. My dad wasn't very good at helping me with my homework and such, he'd always get too frustrated with me, he'd shout and I guess there were a few times he used to pin me up against the wall.

I'm almost 25 and these issues are still with me...please tell me I'm not crazy. Please tell me I'm not insane for the path I've chosen so far. I know I don't have a clue of where I'm going, but I know where I am now and to me...that's far more important at the moment.

I'm being judged unfairly by people who don't know me and this bothers me more than anything. I'm always hearing how I'm a good person and how everyone loves me right away so what's the deal with the harsh, unfair judgement by people who don't know me as I am but know me from gossip and general mistrust of my age?

Sorry, this was all rather scattered...and I'm probably sounding rather scatter-brained myself, just had to get it all out there.