Apparently my efforts to run, for whatever freakish reason(s) were commendable, lol. I thought I was going to die, I felt absolutely useless after the run, went straight to bed, still in running clothes even, but only managed to sleep for 4 hours, if not less. Woke up and couldn't play WoW because they were still doing weekly maintenance. Saw some stupid infomercials on TV, though a few made me want to workout, though I hate working out alone, I need someone to force/push me to do something. I'm thinking I'll run again Thursday early a.m. (I'll probably only do it when my mom's not home, best she not freak out at 3/4/5am when she hears me leave but I don't take the car). Though, I hope it rains, I love it more when it rains. Maybe I won't even walk once, that'd be an accomplishment, maybe it'll even become something I stick with. I want to get my toned body back, could even help me just feel better in general (as we've all heard).

D/V I said I'd give you a 'shout out' so - hey ya sweet cheeks (lol). Thanks, you've helped me more than you know ;)

Tried to write last night too. I miss the feeling I used to get when I felt like I'd completed something, I mean I don't think I'm that great a writer, but those last few poems back in what, October, November...I felt like they were some of my best work. I was on a roll, felt like it would never end, then it did, suddenly. I dunno, I suppose it'll all come back in due time, I just want that feeling back.